I shall go...

Words have fallen silent once again. The dark season has once again arrive and what shall I do? Honestly speaking she lie and continue lie-ing. One after another and flirting with other guys. She is trying to make up and cover up story and turning back the topic to me. Why do good and honest guys seriously fall in love with girls who have the attitude of a bitch and slut? Girls if thats what you want then it would be better if you get along with players who will play with your heart and end of the day tear your heart into multiple pieces and give it back to you. I also notice this scenario, players get along with players and i've should have notice this from the earlier part. If that is so I wish that you have a splendid time and that many other guys will come along your life and make you into a complete mess. If you do know that the guy is good then allow him to be good and if you think that your not worth of a good guy then don't get involved.

Hugs

Hugging the person you love the most is one of the most satisfying feeling... It has been rough for the past few days but after a long hug it all comes back to normal. I felt the exact same feeling when i first hug. I don't want to let you go.. I don't think I can ever let you go away from me just like that. Why aren't you feeling the same way i'm feeling towards you? Don't let what a few people words influence and change your happiness. Are you willing to sacrifice it all just to listen to them? I can't take this pain anymore. It is killing me a lot. Why is it that I seem to experience so much of this conflicts in life? All I want is to be with you. That is all.  

End of Chapter 5

Today will be in my memories forever because the chapter 5 of my life has ended. Well to tell you honestly it ended what I almost expected it to happen. Chapter 5 of my life was a very interesting one because there was a lot of mix emotions and new experiences. Things which I never thought I would do but I did it eventually. It hurts me now that I have to move on to the next chapter but eventually we all will have to move on one day sooner or later. Our life is always about moving forward like a stream of water. This chapter of my life was basically about one girl and how I loved her and yet did not receive any from her. Well an unrequited love is very painful and end of the day your heart is all broken into pieces. So far in my life I have never been able to experience real love and I wonder would that ever going to happen to me or am I fated to be like this, when all of my other peers have been in a relationship over and over again. This girl has really made me to make few changes in my life. Even though she has hurt me many times but I will continue to love her but how long can I survive like this? I will miss her greatly. I hope and wish that someday when she falls in love with a guy he will make her happy and always make sure she smiles. Everytime I hear the song below I will think of her and the memories we created together. =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtOvBOTyX00&ob=av2e

If LOVE......

Olah gomotaz peepz... If you fall in-love you better prepare to be hurt. You think I'm crazy? Let me tell you the fact!! The truth always sucks but it is true. If love comes between two people take it and enjoy it while the feeling and passion is still there. To all my readers who gets into a one way love, let me tell you something. Your an IDIOT to strive on and wait for her to fall for you because it will never happen, so just move on and find a new girl to love. Girls are so complicated that sometimes they don't know what they even want. They become blind and not able to see that the best is just waiting for them but instead they keep looking where is my prince charming. To my fellow female readers please don't get upset here are some stories for you. Open your eyes when your in a relationship because there are guyz out there who are a total jerk that make use of you and then just dumps you. Just because that happens once don't judge that all guys are like that. It is not true because there are still guys who are genuine and who can really love you for who you are. Wow!! Thats alot to digest so i guess thats all for now. Thanks.... muaxxx!!

The pain that hurts so bad.

David was so excited when he heard that his group of friends was planning to go on a trip to some lake gardens just to take a day off from their hectic daily life. He also thought that maybe he can spent sometime with the person he loves. As days were getting nearer he found out that going for this trip would be a disaster for him because of certain things. He decides not to go because he don't want to get hurt anymore but he ended up going for the trip because he thought he can trust her so much. So the day came.

He was so excited because at first everything was going on well. As time pass.... Things get strange. John came up to Bella and said i've got something to talk to you about. Lately John have been getting much more closer to Bella by telling her all his love-life problem and getting her sympathy and compassion where else David on the other side have been expressing his love for her. But David did not say anything about John but just trusted her. So David gave some space to Bella. During that time John took the time to talk to Bella. God know's what they were talking about la. So as they were talking, David had to walk pass them and heard Bella also expressing here problems with John. David was just disturb by that as Bella have never told David any of her problems. David just stood strong by not breaking a word at all. So things went on and hours passed. The group then went to another place. We were separated and David was with Sue and Bella was with John. John was certainly very happy and that time because he had Bella all to himselves. David just had to bear that pain seing both off them together. On the way back, John was actually suppose to sit with David in the front of the car but he swap place with Sean and sat at the back with Bella. John was pratically talking, laughing and playing with Bella throughout the whole journey.

In the heart of David:
I love you Bella with all my heart, how can you do this to me. Atleast not infront of me la but your doing all this right infront of me and hurting me so hard. I trusted you!! When I asked you whats happening between you two and you say nothing but now what is this i'm seing between you two? Do you think I'm a bloody IDIOT!! But i guess i'm an Idiot after all for not hearing the cue's. How am I going to face them? Now my heart is just shaking as hard of a 10 richer scale and boiling as sulphur hot.

People love can either be the most beautiful thing ever or it can be the ugliest thing ever. =)

Leadership......

Olah my dearest readers...... Being a leader sometimes can be so damn annoying and stressful especially when your in a middle of some storm. Leaders are always expected to do all the sacrifices and give up things for their people. Is this what leadesrhip is about? Giving up and sacrificng their own belongings. I think this is unfair. But the theory of the best leadership is to sacrifice everything he or she has. Jesus known as the best leaders in the world gave up his life for his followers just to rescue them so that they will have eternal life. So I guess this is still not too bad. cheers mates. Richard checking out!!

Desperation......

Today is the day I found that the girl I have been fantasising for years have come true. She put her left leg out of the car with a high heels, wore a top red singlet and a black mini skirt. The way she walked was just perfect. Had firm legs with shoulder lenght hair. She was just perfect to me. SHE WAS WITH ANOTHER GUY. How lucky the guy must be to have such a perfect girl-friend. For the pass 10 years of my life I have been seeing my friends getting gf's and having the time of their life while I still wonder when am I going to get one. Everytime I give it a try at a girl within a month or less she would get another BF. I'm like a good luck to girls who has been single and was looking for a BF. I feel so miserable right now seeing all the pretty girls walking by me and worst of all is seeing any couples holding hands and kissing one another showing off the feeling they have for one another. I freakingly don't know what to do with my love life anymore. Should I just move on or should I strive harder? The questions are constantly on my mind thinking of what I shoould do next. For some people getting gf are so simple. It is as simple as choosing their outfit and changes them whenever they like. Where else for me it's not as simple as that. I'm like a beggar on the road waiting next to a clothing shop to buy a clothe that can keep me warm on a cold winter's night. Will I be able to afford it ? The day I get a Gf will be the day I can rest in peace.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fhe5mjgEIRk

Hope u love the song...

So much better after expressing my feelings..... BTW most of the post might not be the true person of me. It could be a made up story.. haha... = )