I fell in love with a Street Girl

In the midst of the tense moment, I needed this break. Caught in between the world of fantasy and reality. At the age where you just need the love and care from someone.

Let me rewind a few months or days. I was constantly being friend-zone and could not find anyone to trust and to really be with. Every girl that was in my life at the time was only in my life for a reason or a benefit which they could rip from me. I kept searching and searching for an answer as to what is wrong and where did I screw up, but there is just no answer to all my question. I also found myself being dumped or only used when the girls were bored or got nothing to do.

I was most hurt when someone I trusted and thought was the most different from others would not end up the same way as other girls treated me. Sorry to say, she was no different as well. When I needed her, she just disappeared using the excuse that she is busy and had to concentrate on her own growth.

All this hurt was kept in me and buried within myself. I had to release it out. On my last day of my vacation, I met someone. She was a beauty queen. She was stunning till it made me star struck. I was exposed and fragile, but she accepted who I was. She giggled at my flaws but did not reject me. She stood there looking at me as if I was her love of her life. I know that she would not be long in my life, but she gave me the hope that someone would want me and could stand together with me and love me till time part us.

I remember how she looked into my eyes and told me that I was not like that other people that she has met before, but I was different and someone she wished to be with. She told me that we could be together. You would probably think by now that I'm a psychopath. Being easily lied and played by her. But no. A week after we parted ways, I asked her a simple question which most people would eventually forget about. To my surprise she still remembers every details of us. Well in my debate, if I didn't seem to  be important to her, she would eventually forget everything we have spoken about but how come she still remembers it ?

I know it is naive for me to use this excuse to fall in love with her. But falling in love is the only way to forget all the hurt that I've been through. Now that we are hundred miles apart, I miss her a lot. I miss the way she touched me, the way she gazed into my eyes, the way she treated me, the way smiled beautifully at me and how she gave me hope again. I would do anything to be with her again, anything to just feel her in my hands again, just holding her tightly and caressing her beautiful body.

If only life and fate would bring us together again. If only there was a solution to every heart break. If only love would means everything. If only pain would be a simple cut which could be cured by a medicated oil. If only love could bring two worlds together without any obstruction. If only, love meant everything.

311 will be remember for my every ups and down. One day, I will be with you again.